Hey guys! So today was big trivia day. We started out with a near perfect score in the first half. Then everything went wrong. First, the place where the tournament was held, had no air conditioning and there were about 60 people in this small room together. It was also very hot outside so before we were even halfway done I felt like I was going to either throw up or pass out, it was bad. At that point we were missing more questions as well. To give a little background this was a statewide tournament and they were asking the same questions to teams in two other cities in out state. To make a long story short, we did not place in the money. The good news is, two of the teams from our town placed! One got first and the other got third so that was pretty awesome. Then a couple hours after that, we went to the Bahnhof to have dinner with one of our friends who is moving out of town. That was very fun. They had a new honey custard cake dessert that was fabulous. Then after that we just cruised around for a bit and then took a walk through the park since it was still really warm outside. We talked about a few things that have been bothering me like the whole house issue, and the whole where is my life going thing that I feel like I will always struggle with. I have a general idea of what I want out of my life, but how I’m going to balance all of those things together in reality is what continues to puzzle me. I’ve written about this before, but my thoughts always get deep like this when my period is about to start lol. It’s like a reminder, hey, time is not standing still, you have to figure this shit out! It’s really sobering and at times very depressing. I think the depression is also its own period symptom I deal with though. It’s hard enough for me to think straight right now as it is, but its like there’s a negative spin on everything that comes to mind. It sucks. Other than that, it was a wonderful night. We stopped a few times to talk to some of his friends we saw along the way. We also saw one of his friends that’s been a friend of my family’s for a while now and it was nice to catch up with him. We just got back to the house a few minutes ago. We have work in the morning, but we don’t go in until 11 so its not a big deal to go to bed a bit late. I’ve also realized that I really have to remember to choose my battles when it comes to what I let stress me out. If I end up tired in the morning, it does not matter because I will be tired in the morning no matter how much sleep I get lol its just my personality. I’ve learned that it helps a lot to be able to let some things go. On that note, I have to get some things done before bed, so I will be back tomorrow. Bye Guys!
Hey guys! So as a warning I wanted to let you guys know, I’ll be talking about some personal stuff today, just an FYI. So today I’ve been doing some pretty deep thinking. This happens to me every month around this time, just before my period. I have a couple weeks where I’m super sensitive to everything around me and think a lot deeper about everything. Today I’ve come to appreciate that. Normally its annoying that I spend so much time in my head, and get upset so easily. Today I’ve learned that these days are really crucial to my everyday survival on a normal day. On a normal day I don’t think about deep emotional stuff usually, I’m just trying to get through the day. I try to brush things off normally and I’ve learned that its because of days like today that I can do that. I don’t think its just hormones, I think at some point all my stress and worries build up and need somewhere to go. For example, I was reading local news reports of all the shootings and overdoses that have been happening in my town recently, and I then spent a couple hours just contemplating moving to a better place and researching safer cities in West Virginia. Normally this is just something I think in passing and move on. Then on the drive home, after all the stress at work and just watching the people in our town out my window, I just cried. I’m not ashamed. I’m a firm believer that having a good cry is good for you. It also did not help that Tommy was playing particularly sad music. That’s also one of the things I’m super sensitive to. That can be good and bad. Like if its a super catchy fun song, I’ll be dancing in my seat, but if its a sad or slow song I will just lose it. Then when we got home it was about 11 p.m. our time, and our new neighbors had one of their hundred children outside riding a go-kart and cursing up a storm. At 11 p.m.. This kid was probably no more that 5 years old. -_- All I could think of is, I don’t want my future children having anything to do with kids like this. Which in our town means homeschooling, or private religious schools. I would choose homeschooling in a heartbeat. This is also an example of something I ponder in passing, but made a firm choice on tonight. Thank you neighbors, you’re bad parenting has made my decision easier. Well guys tomorrow is Comicon, and I am super excited, so I’m heading to bed now, I’ll catch up with you guys tomorrow, Bye!